16 Wishes

Ever since i was little,,i always dreamt to have a big birthday bash to be celebrated with my family n bff,,,,but still,,life is not as you dream,,,huhu,,,anyway,,for this 16th birthday,,I wish to have something special that will become the sweetest memory in my life ,,,why ???,,,hurm,,perhaps that i'm influenced by MTV sweet sixteen,,,and disney channel movie,,16 wishes,,,hurm,,bla3,,btw,,wanna know what is my top 16 wishes ???,,,

1]first and foremost,,I wish that all of imprtant people in my life will wish me happy birthday and will pray for my 'kesejahteraan' *x tau gpo go2 daley bi,,,haha,,teringt ko "tayar berbunga" daley exam ai 2,,,haha,,,kannn haniss ??,,

2]secondly,,,wish that my mom would be the 1st one to wish me,,*totally impossible right,,?,,ye,,sy tau larh !!,,

3]I want to wake up at the morning on my birthday with lots and lots of gift *impossible jgk kann,,?tau larh !!,,

4]wanna be treated like a princess the whole day *huhu,,,,mmg ak nu perasan pown,,x yoh oyak larh,,,ak tau dowh,,

5]secret wishes sket,,ssssshhhh ye,,,

-wish that budop udoh *for those who know who she is,,wink3,,wouldn't be at my sight for the whole day,,

6]nak makan kek secret recipe,,,nyam3,,,terliur makkk,,,

7]wanna hang out with my bff,,totek,anis, aming,ras,,mail,n rmai2 ag,,,koho rmai koho bagus,,,

-bnyop sikit hadioh ak nati,,hehe,,

8]nak fon baru,,,uollls,,,sape2 yg dah bace post ak,, *http://amalinrosly94.blogspot.com/2010/05/damnmy-dearest-phoneout-of-trace.html

,,korang tentu faham kesengsaraan aku kann,,*bkn mntk nga korang larh,,,tp ikut larh sape pwn,,,haha,,

9]kalo fon mhl sgt,,,mp3/mp4 pown ok gak,,hurm,,boring sesungguh-sungguhnya la skang niey,,

10]next is,,because I truly miss my nieces and nephew,,I wish that they would sing birthday song for me,,,*bleyh kann,,tini ?,,,hehe

11]wish that my end year exam's result would arrive safely at my home

p/s:kalo result tinggi,,puhhh3,,,biar la slmt smpai,,,

tp,kalo result rendah,,puhhh3,,biar la hanyut dek banjir,,,hehe,,

12]wish that celcom would extend my birthday bonus for a month,,,

*baru larh berbaloi-baloi,,,hehe,,

13]wish that next year,,,I will be a more dedicated students,,,

-dah nak spm kannn,,,

14]wish ni agak censored sket,,tp,,,ak mntk2 la hopefully taon dpn,,,sum1 with a fierce attitude *korang agak2 la sape ye,, would not be in smkip anymore,,hehe,,

15]daaa xde wish la kot,,,tp mntk2 semuanye selamat,,

16]I wish that tomorrow would give me brighter future,,,

-my ambition is to be a pharmacist,,so mintak2 la Allah permudahkan jalan aku,,aminnnn,,,

that's all la uolls,,,huhu,,,wish2 di atas agak impossible kannn ?,,,name lg wish kann,,,x semestinya logik,,,

Happy Birthday to my dearest sis !!

~Queen of the Night~

Tanggal 06 nov 2010,,,peristiwa bersejarah telah berlaku,,,

guess what ???,,,

nati dlu,,,sbnrnyo ai 2 ado dinner asrama kat restoran syam,,,n mace biaso ucapan 'penyu' n the rest,,,,bla3,,,huhu,,,

then,maso cabutan bertuah 2,,ak punye la jampi nop mene,,,*puhh3*,,,huhu,,,

pgap,,tnggu pnye tnggu,,,x kdgrn pown namo ak hok kiut niey,,,,frust ugop bena,,tp nop wat gano.,,xdop rezeki dowh,,,

lps 2,,,ado anugerah king n queen of the night,,,so ak wat muko blur jew la,,,tentu2 buke ak hok meney,,,tp duo ore saem ak niey,,ei'l n chekk duk bertegas oyak ak hok akn meney n siap swuh ak blnjo burger kat kantin,,,ak pown bet r,,,

n the most unblievable things happen,,,'dan diumumkan queen of the night ialah,,,,,,,,,,,,

*jeng3* nur amalin bt rosly,,,,,makkkkk,,,kejut beruk aku,,,ak pown naik r pentas dgn gabranye,,,mujo la high heel ku yg brjasa ni x wat hal,,,kalu jatuh mso amek adioh 2,,malu ko beruk la ak,,,huhu,,,

n mama roha siap gura ag,,,nop pnje loket aku,,,huhu,,,guess that i'm the most jangok aspuri that night,,,,n btw,,,trpaksa la ak blnjo ei'l nga farah 2,,,,mnggu depey r ei'l deyh,,xdop pitih mnggu niey,,,huhu,,,

p/s:why ak guno bhso kelate pekat post niey ?,,,,sjo jah,,,bi blur etp loni,,,so kalu x pehe rajin2 larh bertanye yerr,,,huhu,,,

btw,,gmba ak trimo hadioh 2 xdop dale kamera ak,,,duk dale kamera skul etp,,

Lirik lagu yang bernas !,,,muahahaha,,,

Kalau berpacaran
Memang banyak pantang larang
Menjaga susila
Ibu bapa adik abang

Apabila berdua
Carilah tempat yang terang
Agar tidak pula
Mencuba aksi terlarang

Boleh pandang-pandang
Jangan pegang-pegang
Duduk renggang-renggang
Bertambah sayang

Biar malu-malu
Biar segan-segan
Kerna malu itu
Perisai orang beriman

Ana Raffali
Kalau berpacaran
Jangan tunggu lama-lama
Kalau dah berkenan
Jumpalah ayah dan mama

Hantarkan rombongan
Meminang dengan segera
Kalau terlambat kasihmu disambar buaya

Ulang korus

Altimet(kononnya syaitan)
Yeah
Kita sambung cerita
Kalau kamu berdua
Aku yang ketiga

Aku penambah perasa
Akulah pendarab nafsu serakah
Hai teruna bikin perangai selamba
Hati si dara kata tak apa

Berani buat terima padah
Kalau tak sedia
Ucap syahadah

p/s:untung ak x berkapel,,,hehe,,x la terasa sgt kena sindir bila dgr lagu ni,,,

wlauapepun,,congrats kps pnulis lirik lgu ni krna berjaya mnyindir secara berseni,,,

Post InI MeNgGaNtI KaD RaYA OkE ??,,,

p/s:contohi lah spongebob n patrick,,,
gud boy !!!
~Emy

Selamat Hari rayo emy,,,
x sey ajop awin g umah ko ?,,haha,,*stail jela deyh,,

nop mtop maaf la kalu ado wat saloh gpo2 nga emy hok oe x perase,,sori deyh,,
0-0,,


~Aming

1stly,,to aming ming ming,,sori la sbb ak x wi kad rayo ko mg,,sbbnyo ak takut mg nganyim ko ak plop,,old fashion ko gano,,hehe,,,

tp sbb mg wat operasi boikot esoh hok besar-besaran nga esoh junior,,ak pown wat la post niey ko mg,,

Selamat hari rayo ming,,,maaf la kalu aku ado wat mg sero ati ko gano *maklumla,,mg key sensitigf yg amat* huhu,,n kalu ado wat mg sero nop jeluok dengar khutbah berjelo aku 2,,

Pasal g rayo umah mg 2,,ak x sure ag,,kalu bulih gak aku g la,,tp,,sedio la sekut tat nenas bnyop,,n for sure kuzi n roti jalo mg 2,,
tp mg pown,,bley2 g umah mok sedaro mg 2,,mai la rayo etp kat umah buruk ak niey,,

key larh,,2 jah ak nop oyak nyo,,,rayo ni,,enjoy la duk dapur deyh,,haha,,

~Hanis

Camat ari rayo,,budop kecik !!..*wlaupn ak kecik jgop,,

I wish that eid for this year would be a meaningful one to u,,despite all the trouble that u face,,
let's just hope that there will be a silver shining at the end of all your troubles,,

n 1 ag,,hehe,,*mlayu plop,,
ak nop mtop maaf kalu ado wat mg sero ati ko gano deyh,,
maklumla ak pown nasio biaso ugop,,wlaupun tahap kecomeylan aku ni x masuk akal,,

*skali skalo nop perase,,apo salohnyo deyh ?,,haha,,,

~Ras

Camat ari rayo ,,,

Paka jangok la taon nieyh,,ph2 upload bnyop kat fb,,huhu,,hok petimnyo kejangokey mg 2 x leyh lbeh padey aku,,haha,,

n make bnyop la,,ni la peluang keemasan mg untk jd gmuk,,,
*u know what they say,,'strike while the iron is hot'*
huhu,,jd sesi ngaja idiom plop,,

lazly,,sori kalu ado wat saloh gpo2 ko mg,,enjoy la rayo ni deyh,,

p/s:
~sapo2 hok aku x bbuh dley post niey bukenyo brmkno ak x ingt ko gano,,tp letih doh naip etp,,huhu,,Selamat hari raye oke ,,,

~n maen la bedey banyop,,'Bedey baik untuk kesihatan',,,
especially bedey bawey,,

~n 1 ag,,kalu ado mek2 or mat2 saleh hok x pehe bahaso kelatey pekat aku niey,,sori la deyh,,
even i'm not a true kelantanese,,but still my 'bahaso kelate' is A++,,,,

~n last but not least,,
sori kalu ado post daley blog ni yg offend sapo2,,
sori jugop kalu aku ado wat saloh nga demo,,
0-0 deyh,,

Mood=X SabaR Nak Raye !!!

Saya mewakili mohor2 diraja inhin mengumungkan !!!
bahawasanya 3 hari lagi nak raya !!!

~oh my gucci !!x sabar nyo nop rayo,,
sbbnyo ???:,,,

checklist untuk rayo dah lengkap,,

1]baju kurung-adow ! *credits to aifa zainuddin for being my guide tour for today,,hehe...

2]selendang rayo=adow ugop !

3]selipar rayo=adow,,

4]sekuk=beli doh
p/s:rajin dooh nop beli,,mls nop wat ,,,

5]kek=x leh wat awl2 tkut basi,,so male rayo hok ni deh,,

6]family=not done yet,,
kak nur,abe ein,abe pit,abe g x blik ag !!,,,

~therefore,,my checklist for raya is almost done now,,
just waiting for my siblings to come home,,

~hurm,,very2 anxious to meet my two little princess,,,:
(my nieces)=tini n fizah,,,
p/s:paka jangok2 ye,,sbb che lin pown jangok jugop !!hehe,,,

SeLaMaT MeNyAmBut PuAsA !!!

P/S;although my mum look fierce in this pixx,,but she is truly a kind mom..

Firstly,,I would like to wish 'selamat mnyambut bulan Ramadhan Al-Mubarak...and in this post,,I would like to share the memories that I once had with all my family members..

~MOM

.I still remember that every fasting month,,you would cook all of my favourite
foods without any complain,,Just utter it,,and bumm!u would cook it in just a
wink...huh,,only Allah knows how i miss ur cooks and wish that i could cook as
delicous as u never fail to do,,,,

Every morning,,u would wake us up and blabber about how lazy we were..That
time,,I really felt my ears gonna deaf after hearing ur blabber...But u know
what,,now,,,I really wish that u would still wake me up and blabber as u usualy
do...But I know,,,my wish is impossible by any means..


~Kak Nur

Although I rarely got the chance to fast with you,,But I still remember the time
when I bake 'biskut raye' with you...

~Kak Ti

Last year,,I think that i would feel lonely being through Ramadhan without my mom...But apparently u changed that..U worked really hard to replace mom's place..I know how burdened you are,, to take care of us..But still u just smile and pretend that everything was normal..You pick us up at hostel,,cooked our favourite foods,,took us to the mall and so many thing that u have done,,,making us feels like that we can still celebrate Ramadhan happily by ur side..

Thank u,,that's all I can say to u as I know I can't repay everything u have done to us..Although u pretend like u don't like me,,but I know deep down ur pure heart..U really loves me,,ur little sister
p/s; jge katow awin perase plop,,hehe..

~Abe Ein

As for abe ein,,u're the most generous brother i had besides abe de..I barely got to know you because u are the most secretive siblings..U don't like to let other's know about your problem and if only u do,,I barely know about it...b'coz i'm still a little girl..But I know that I love u,,,,and of course your generosity,,,..hehe.,,.and my love had increase after i knew that i gonna have a niece !!!

~Abe Pit

As for u,,my meanest but kind brother,,it's really hard being trough Ramadhan without u by my side..Although U always tease me so hard,,that I barely can count how many times u had made me cry,,,but still u are a very caring brother instead.. I remember that when I don't want to wake up for sahur,,u would 'dukung' me to downstairs and put me on the chair in dining room..How I feel special being the youngest member in our family..


~Abe G

And last but not least,,my dearest brother,,Abe g... U have always been the most 'juruh' siblings and you really do !!!...huh,,but I still remember the time when you're not too juruh..When ma waked us up,,we would went downstairs and continue our sleep on the sofa...=))

You had always being a good and protective brother to me..Although I have been hardly thinking why didn't u let me have a boyfriend or whatsoever..But I think Idon't need one..The love that I got from all of you had completed my love life..


As the proverb says 'distance keeps the heart grows fonder'....I know that we are slowly becoming adults and me too,,..and we also had only littel time to spend together...But I want u all to know that every single second I spend with all of you is so precious..

Finally,,thanks to all of my brothers and sisters..U make me think that although ma is gone,,I still got all of you shoulders to cry on..

`ThE mOsT aBStRaCt FeeLiNg EveR!!!~

My life is now fill with laughter and fun,,yet why am i feeling my life so empty???,,I feel like a part of me is missing but i do not know what the hell it is..I felt so stress and feel like i'm gonna turn mad in any time..Why is this tini,,tiny thing turned worst???..Well,,I think I know the answer,,hurm,,I do not have any shoulders to cry on...what about my father,,huh..The only thing he knows is to blabber and bla3,,well not thAT BAD,,,he is a good father instead..But still,,why could not he be more understanding???I'm not saying that i'm not thankful,,,but just wondering.....

The truth is i miss doing my old habit,,which is reciting al-Quran..I'm not bragging about this or whatsoever,,but I really do feel peace after reciting Al-Quran verses as if all my problems had fly away...BUT,,that was last year only,,when I'm facing PMR..I know that this year is the worst for me..I had so much fun until I barely remember about my duties to Allah..I know my mom is always waiting for me to recite al-Quran verses for her,,..I;m sorry mom,,I always forgot about you,...But,I promise now that I will change...Insyaallah..

I know nothing about my real problem..But it seems that everyone is mad at me..C.Minah,,withe her usual way,,,asking[actually scolding] me to wear a more 'labuh tudung'...Sir Faris,,,asking why am i looking so lazy nowadays...AND last but not least,,my family that had been worrying about my attitude....

I'm sick thinking about this 'invisible' problem that I face..Perhaps,,I should be send to Phsychologycal Hospital,,since that I am emotionally unstable right now...Enough about my crazy feeling for now,,,because I afraid that you would be as crazy as I am after reading my blog...

p/S;thanks for lending your beautiful eyes..;)

WhAt aN ExPeRiEnCe,,,

Peristiwa terbaek yg pernah trjd dlm idop aku!!!seronok sgt2 thp cipan,,dgn 'saeng2' hok gilo2 n sporting abess,,prut knyg,,hati pown sng,,

oppppss,,,sori sbb x cter dlu prstiwa ape niey,,excted sgt kot smpai trlupe..4 ur information,,ni ialah bbq suprise buat ckgu ksyngn,,Cikgu Zaidin..n die mati2 prcaye yg ade pgwai ppd nak jumpe kat perdana resort,,haha...Kirenye menjadi jgk la 'Wakenabeb' versi kitorang..

then lps 2 kitorang mkn2 n then tiba2 hujan trun lbt sgt..then abah aku pown tepon,,kate dah smpai..pah2 idin pown offer la teman ak smpai ke keter,,so,,ade la mcm dlm cter hndstn 2,,redah hujan same2,,,haha,,
p/s; x brmksud ape2 k...

Akhir skali,,thanks ye semua,,I syg u all sgt2,,u're the best buds i've ever had..thanks sbb menceriakn kmbali hdup aku yang suram,,..

~EmO TyMe Is BaCk,,,,sobs3....

Last night,,,i had a dream...a terrifying dream,,about my dearest mother...it's not very clear,,but one thing for sure,,i saw my own mother was shooted in front of my very own eyes in that dreams...instantly i rushed her to the hospital,,,but i before i make it to go to the hospital,,,my mother died on my lap,,,

i cried and cried,,until i finally woke up from this horible dreams...i know i'm so stupid to believe in this crappy matters,,,but this totally had turn my life upside down for the 2nd time...after i had this dream,,then only i realise how much i really,,really miss my mother....ma,,i miss u,,,so much,,,i miss the time wheni was teased with my elder brothers,,and u will always hug me and tell 'xpo,,ma ado niey,,jge tiok...''...

i miss u,,,so much that i can';t describe it with words....after i woke up,,i can't stop crying..then i called all my siblings,,but none of them answers my call...my mind start thinking that no one loves and cares me anymore...i hate to be so weak like this,,,but i really need to let out my sadness on somebody's shoulders now,....

Ma,,,
I loves u so much,,
that no words can decribe,,
u're a truly special person,,
one of a kind in this world,,,

U're heart,,as white as pearl,,
u will always be there for others,,,
u're spirit,,really makes me proud,,,
to say that;s my mom!,,,

eventhough i'm 16 now,,,
i want u to know,,
that i will always be ur little baby,,
that is born from a really painful surgery,,,
on 25 nov 1994,,,

and i will always pray,,,
that simetimes,,perhaps in other world,,
i will still got the chance to meet you again,,
and to really2 appreciate you...

bila perasaan bercampur aduk=stress

1]Frust menonggeng-nonggeng
aduyai,,frust la nga rsult nieyh,,,tp sbnr-bnrnye ak dlm thp ksdrn yg tnggi bhwa punca rsult ak merudum ilah sbb K.E.M.A.L.A.S.A.N ak ni sndri...hurm,,ak dal lame sedar psl pnykit sk niey,,,
untuk prbndgn,,disini ade rsult awl taon n tgh taon ak,,,

Awal tahun Tengah tahun
bm= 76 A- 76 jgk
bi 79 A- 70
sej 65 B 64
rc 74 A- 56C!
pai 76 A- 71
math 84A 70A-
+math 56C 56
fz 65B 49C-
bio 70 A- 62B-
chem 74A- 73A-

nampak x prbezaan ketara 2???kalau x nmpk lg,,mknenye dah x lama dah 2....ksmplnnye,,rsult ak turun berdgum-degum dari 7A 2B 1C ke 5A 2B 3C,,,
kirenye ak skang ni tgh meyakinkn bos ak 2 yg ak amt2 prlukn tuisyen skang niey,,

2]BeRdEbAr TaHaP cIpAn

n satu lg mslh ak niey,,ak tgh brdbr+nervous+takut sbb prtndgn drma bi dah dkt dah....n ak rase yg ak x dpt feeling pown lg...aduh...tkot,,tanak la pngrbnn ak pnteng kls sbb latihan drama ni x brbaloi pulak...mintak2 la mmbuahkn hasil...aminnnn....

kanak2 ribena yg riang!!!

saye,,budak kecik yg riang..................suke atiey!!!,,,naper ye???,,,,,

sbbnye,,smlm abh sy kate....smpn la duit anugrh pmr yg daerah 2 baik2,,x yah guna wat bli hnset baru,,

die kate,,nanti ade duit lebey2 sket,,die jnji nk beli tepon baru!!,,
sbb2 la,,sy suke atiey!!!,,,

Darjat seorang W.A.N.I.T.A

Seorang anak laki-laki

kecil bertanya kepada ibunya "Mengapa
ibu menangis?"

"Kerana aku seorang
wanita", kata sang ibu kepadanya.

"Aku tidak mengerti",
kata anak itu.

Ibunya hanya memeluknya
dan berkata, "Dan kau tak akan pernah
mengerti"

Kemudian anak laki-laki
itu bertanya kepada ayahnya, "Mengapa
ibu suka menangis tanpa alasan?"

"Semua wanita menangis
tanpa alasan", hanya itu yang dapat
dikatakan oleh ayahnya.

Anak laki-laki kecil itu
pun lalu tumbuh menjadi seorang
laki-laki dewasa, tetap ingin tahu
mengapa wanita menangis.

Akhirnya ia menghubungi
Tuhan, dan ia bertanya, "Tuhan, mengapa
wanita begitu mudah menangis?"

Allah berfirman:

"Ketika Aku menciptakan
seorang wanita, ia diharuskan untuk
menjadi seorang yang istimewa. Aku
membuat bahunya cukup kuat untuk
menopang dunia; namun, harus cukup
lembut untuk memberikan kenyamanan "

"Aku memberikannya
kekuatan dari dalam untuk mampu
melahirkan anak dan menerima penolakan
yang seringkali datang dari anak-anaknya "

"Aku memberinya
kekerasan untuk membuatnya tetap tegar
ketika orang-orang lain menyerah, dan
mengasuh keluarganya dengan penderitaan
dan kelelahan tanpa mengeluh "

"Aku memberinya kepekaan
untuk mencintai anak-anaknya dalam
setiap keadaan, bahkan ketika anaknya
bersikap sangat menyakiti hatinya "

"Aku memberinya kekuatan
untuk mendukung suaminya dalam
kegagalannya dan melengkapi dengan
tulang rusuk suaminya untuk melindungi
hatinya "

"Aku memberinya
kebijaksanaan untuk mengetahui bahwa
seorang suami yang baik takkan pernah
menyakiti isterinya, tetapi kadang
menguji kekuatannya dan ketetapan
hatinya untuk berada disisi suaminya
tanpa ragu"

"Dan akhirnya, Aku
memberinya air mata untuk dititiskan dan
ini adalah khusus miliknya untuk
digunakan bilapun ia perlukan."

"Kau tahu kecantikan
seorang wanita bukanlah dari pakaian
yang dikenakannya, susuk yang ia
tampilkan, atau bagaimana ia menyisir
rambutnya."

"Kecantikan seorang
wanita harus dilihat dari matanya,
kerana itulah pintu hatinya.. Tempat
dimana cinta itu ada."

Kirimkan ini kepada
setiap wanita yang anda kenal hari ini
untuk memperingati Wanita. Jika Anda
lakukan, sesuatu yang baik akan terjadi.
Anda akan menambah harga diri wanita!

Kirimkan msg ini juga
kepada kaum lelaki, supaya mereka sedar
dan ingat akan kecantikan wanita mereka
yang azali.. bukan pada kecantikan
luaran semata-mata. Selamilah hati
wanita mu.. dan ingat lah...
Setiap Wanita itu Cantik.

TRUE FACT!!!=exam+stress are siblings!!!!

why am i putting this stupid pixx???hurm,,nothing actually..just to let out my stress feeling towards exam..tomorrow,,i gonna face physic exam,,but what do i know about physics???NOTHING,,i mean ZERO!!!...it's not completely my fault actually,,but i think my teacher is too boring to concentrate to him..

Quite mean right???but,,that's the truth..it is a compulsory for me and my bff to sleep when he is teaching..i'm not so sure but i think his voice has a kinda spell that can make everyone sleep..just kidding!!!

eventhough deep inside my heart i really respect him for still be patient with our crazy attitudes,,but i still can't force myself to love physics as much as i crazily love chemistry...If i am given a choice between chemistry and physics,,certainly i would point to chemistry!!!...CHEMISTRY IS THE BEST DAMN SUBJECT I'VE EVER LEARNT!!!...

enough with my reveals about how much i hate physics,,...i have to pen off now..ha99.[i know it's not quite accurate to say 'pen off' as i'm using a keyboard now]..k...bye2 and until we meet again and that is only if i had any idea to write anything....

damn!!!!my dearest phone!!!out of trace...

naper ak letak gamba niey???hurm..bknnye ade mksd trsirat ke,,udang dalam megi ke...yg sebenar-benarnye,,nmpk x objek kiut wrna merah dlm pixx niey??that's my phone!!!n phone ak yg kiut 2 dah HILANG!!!Hilang ,jika drujuk dlm kamus dewan,,,mknenye,,x de lps dcari...n x sprti objek2222 kpnyaanku yg prnh hlg sblum niey,,kali niey ak ade daya usaha dan keinginan yg membuak-buak untk jejak kasih hensetku i2..

tp,,ape ksdhnnye..hurmm...gniey la ak cter prmulaannye..pd malam harinye,,ak brgrau ngan kwn2 ak,,yg biar ak cas henset atas katil je la,,sbb plag kat blik gsok da penuh..n keesokn arinye lps blik skul,,dgn excitednye ak bukak loker nak tgk fon..mne la tau ade msj sst ke ape..tp hati ak hmpa srbu kali hmpa,,hnset ku mampus keras...

then,,tgk la kat blik iron,,fuhh,,lega..bnyk ag plag ksong..ak pown dgn sdp ati nye cas henset n tnggl kat c2 tnpa mmikrkn bruk baiknye...haisy...nk djdikn cter,,lps prep ak pown naik dorm..n nak tau x?????HENSET XDE!!!ILANG!!!TNGGL NGECAS JEW...WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
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ak pown mnngis la semahunye,,sape x sdih,,hnset ksyngn hlg....n bila kwn ak tau sal niey,,diorg pown dgn pnuh prihatin tlg ak wat spotcheck kat dorm mok su..mok su=org bisu,,pndidikn khas..tp nak tau ape yg ak dpt??ak yg tgh frust menonggeng mase 2 dijerkah semahu-mahunye oleh warden yg blum smpai sthun jgung ag kat asrma niey...atiey ak msih boleh brsbr,,ak pjuk atiey ak yg gndh gulana niey..dah la warden[sorry 2 say,,but i think she is damn stupid] yg prsn bgus niey sbuk duk mmbela mok su2 i2..

dan,,sprti yg dktahui umum,,ak bknnye gila nak syak mok su 2 tnpa sbb..
sbb2 nye ialah:
1]diorg mmg prnh ade sjrh yg cmrlg dlm bab2 mncuri niey..
2]diorg juge mmg slalu gatal telapak tgn dlm bab mnjdkn hnset yg dicas d blik iron sbgai hak milik=mknenye mncrboh hak peribadi fon..

,,wlaupun ak ni brdbr thp cipan bila pikir tndkn asrma,,bebelan abah n mcm2 bnda r brputar kat kpla ak mase prep mlm 2...ttp,,mujur la ketua wardenku yg baik atiey niey,,x mrh pown psl ak bwk fon,,mmg contra la kalau nk dbndngkn dgn warden yg prsn bgus 2...die dgn pnuh rase tnggungjwb mmberi hak pnuh kpd kitorang untk geledah dorm mok su dan juga normal..

n lps pncarian ktorg x mmbawa ape2 hsil yg mmbrasngkn pown,,n thap bengang+sedih ak pown dah sampai thp maksimumnye,,,ak pown swuh sep2 mok su 2 junjung qur'an...ak tau mngkn tndkn ni dianggp brlbihn tp mmg ak dah buntu sgt99999...haisy,,n mase 2 la dgn tibe2nye,,lntai dorm diorg naik n prstiwa ni kalu guna logik akal pown teramatlah plik,,kan???..cam ade yg x kena je...n lps 2 jgk la dgn x semenanye ade sorg mok su niey,,meraung[mok su,,diorg x de pndgrn,,n diorg same skali x tau yg raungan 2 dah lbih dari bnyi singa yg dkcau tdurnye]..ya allah,,lg la brtmbh bengang atiey ak niey...

walauapepun samivellu kate,,,mmg fon ak dah hilang terus,lesap,,x djmpai atau ape2 aje la..gundahnye hatiku niey..dah la ak yg pnkut niey blum ade kbranian nak gtau abh ak..aduuuuuu...mslh2..n klau nk tmbh perisa mslh ak niey,,henset 2 ialah hdiah rsult 8a pmr...

sungguh,,ak mmg blur yg amat skang niey,,hnye tnggl tawakal je kat allah,,hrp2 la sgt org yg curi fon ak 2 trbukak atiey n plgkn henset ak...n sape2 yg tmpg sekaki bace blog ak niey,,same2 doa ek smoga ak jmpe blik henset ak niey..aminnnn,,..................

happy mother's day to ????

'HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY',,a magical words that i really want to utter but to whom?..ya allah,,please give me strength to face this lost..I really miss my ma,,and only allah knows how i wish to hug and kiss her,,and to tell her she is the greatest mother in this world..

i really envy my friends that is now busy preparing to celebrate mother's day with their family..i still remember that once i saved my daily money 4 weeks until i got to save rm10..it was kinda large sum of money for kids at my age..then i asked my brother,,abe g to drop me at a batik shop at my village..i bought a pink batik shirt for my dearest ma and the smile that she gave to me when she received my gift was enough to make me feel satisfied...

happy mother's day ma,,,'awin syg sgt ko ma,,tiap2 mlm awin mmpi ko ma,,ma mai pluk awin,,tp sblm awin smpt pluk ma,ma skmo g..I love you,,not only for today but forever..no one could replace you in my heart b'coz your name is locked there..when i'm in sorrow,,no one could make me smile as you did..

single or double???

Taylor swift says''two is better than one''
well,I say'' being single is the best damn thing ever happen to me..''
why????
b'coz i will always there when i need myself..anonymous

I'm quite sure that you must be wondering what am i babbling about..
actually i don't know why n 4 what reason i'm posting this crappy things,,but believe me,,i'm too tired to think about it..

i'm just feeling too lonely and i kinda feels that i have no shoulders to cry on,,and no one to hold when i fall..huh,,have you ever feels that?...this feeling is too painful to describe using any words in this world..

...L.O.V.E...
I never knew what this word means,,perhaps too early 4 me to experience it but still i'm anxious to know about it..

have i ever been in love?...hurmm..i don't know whether this should be called 1st love but i'm kinda sure that i feel happy being in this situation..but sadly,,it never last long..so,,now i'm just waiting..waiting n waiting for someone that is meant for me..hoping that it will be just like fairytale stories-HAPPILY EVER AFTER-..

sometime,,after we lose something,,,then only we know how to appreciate it..

appreciate ur mother when she is still beside u..

That evening,i had an instinct that somtehing bad is going 2 happen..it is raining so heavily..i was staying at hostel at that time…i juz ignore my bad feeling and did my daily routine…when i was in musalla to perform maghrib prayer,my friend told me that ‘abe g’[my brother] wanted to see me and he said that it’s an urgent matter…

Instantly,i thought about my sick mother..no…i was calming myself that my mother would be fine…my tears flowed swiftly when i saw that my brother was crying..i know that sumthing had happen to my dear mother..and my instinct was right..my one n only mother had leave me 4ever…i can’t control myself…i just cried and cried..why???i ask myself…i still need her at my side…but i knew that Allah luv her more than me..

i went back to my home n saw may people were there..then my eyes caught the view of my ‘ma’s body…i hugged her and cried..i still can’t accept the fate..i did not sleep at all on that night..i juz wanted to spend my last time with my mother..then,when sunshine had showed itself,my heart still gloom…but,i really feel satisfied that i got chance to hold my ma’s body and bathed her 4 the last time…her body was so cold…my heart scream,’ma bgn la ma..jgn tnggl awin sore’..but i knew that my mother can’t hear me.

.the saddest moment was when i was asked to kiss my mother ..i knew that this is the last chance i had to kiss her,so i just hugged and kissed her cold cheek..when the villagers started to bury her body,i was devastated..i really regret that i didn’t spend much time with her..now that i knew that i had to stand on my own feet wihout relying to my mother anymore…i will have to face my sadness by myself and cry alone without my mother calming me anymore…my life felt empty and i nearly lost my hope to continue my life..but i was lucky that i still have abah,kak nur,kak ti,abe de,abe ein,abe pit,ab g n abe asyo..these human were the one who gave me reason to continue my life as usual..

The reason i'm digging up my memories is b'coz i had a dream last night about my dearest mother..and i just want anyone who read my blog realise how lucky you are to still have a mother at your side..and for those who had the same fate as me,,life must go on..

hate that stupid girl!!

oh dear,,,how can i describe my hatred feelings to a stupid,,fugly girl staying at my house...
it's not just she has replaced my place as the youngest member in our family,,,but she had done so many things(enough to make me hate her 101 %)...

as everyone knows,,i'm not an insane person who feels angry without any reason..and of course this reason is enough to make me explode now..SHE WORE MY FAVOURITE,,EXPENSIVE SHIRT!!!!..shit!!and without any guillt just showing up that she's wearing my t's proudly..if i could,,i would slap her until she lose all her fugly teeths...but unfortunately,,i couldn't..oh,,how i'm so hopeless..