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Thursday, August 12, 2010

SeLaMaT MeNyAmBut PuAsA !!!





P/S;although my mum look fierce in this pixx,,but she is truly a kind mom..

Firstly,,I would like to wish 'selamat mnyambut bulan Ramadhan Al-Mubarak...and in this post,,I would like to share the memories that I once had with all my family members..

~
MOM

.
I still remember that every fasting month,,you would cook all of my favourite
foods without any complain,,Just utter it,,and bumm!u would cook it in just a
wink...huh,,only Allah knows how i miss ur cooks and wish that i could cook as
delicous as u never fail to do,,,,

Every morning,,u would wake us up and blabber about how lazy we were..That
time,,I really felt my ears gonna deaf after hearing ur blabber...But u know
what,,now,,,I really wish that u would still wake me up and blabber as u usualy
do...But I know,,,my wish is impossible by any means..



~Kak Nur


Although I rarely got the chance to fast with you,,But I still remember the time
when I bake 'biskut raye' with you...

~Kak Ti

Last year,,I think that i would feel lonely being through Ramadhan without my mom...But apparently u changed that..U worked really hard to replace mom's place..I know how burdened you are,, to take care of us..But still u just smile and pretend that everything was normal..You pick us up at hostel,,cooked our favourite foods,,took us to the mall and so many thing that u have done,,,making us feels like that we can still celebrate Ramadhan happily by ur side..

Thank u,,that's all I can say to u as I know I can't repay everything u have done to us..Although u pretend like u don't like me,,but I know deep down ur pure heart..U really loves me,,ur little sister
p/s; jge katow awin perase plop,,hehe..

~Abe Ein

As for abe ein,,u're the most generous brother i had besides abe de..I barely got to know you because u are the most secretive siblings..U don't like to let other's know about your problem and if only u do,,I barely know about it...b'coz i'm still a little girl..But I know that I love u,,,,and of course your generosity,,,..hehe.,,.and my love had increase after i knew that i gonna have a niece !!!

~Abe Pit

As for u,,my meanest but kind brother,,it's really hard being trough Ramadhan without u by my side..Although U always tease me so hard,,that I barely can count how many times u had made me cry,,,but still u are a very caring brother instead.. I remember that when I don't want to wake up for sahur,,u would 'dukung' me to downstairs and put me on the chair in dining room..How I feel special being the youngest member in our family..


~Abe G

And last but not least,,my dearest brother,,Abe g... U have always been the most 'juruh' siblings and you really do !!!...huh,,but I still remember the time when you're not too juruh..When ma waked us up,,we would went downstairs and continue our sleep on the sofa...=))

You had always being a good and protective brother to me..Although I have been hardly thinking why didn't u let me have a boyfriend or whatsoever..But I think Idon't need one..The love that I got from all of you had completed my love life..


As the proverb says 'distance keeps the heart grows fonder'....I know that we are slowly becoming adults and me too,,..and we also had only littel time to spend together...But I want u all to know that every single second I spend with all of you is so precious..


Finally,,thanks to all of my brothers and sisters..U make me think that although ma is gone,,I still got all of you shoulders to cry on..




Thursday, August 5, 2010

`ThE mOsT aBStRaCt FeeLiNg EveR!!!~

My life is now fill with laughter and fun,,yet why am i feeling my life so empty???,,I feel like a part of me is missing but i do not know what the hell it is..I felt so stress and feel like i'm gonna turn mad in any time..Why is this tini,,tiny thing turned worst???..Well,,I think I know the answer,,hurm,,I do not have any shoulders to cry on...what about my father,,huh..The only thing he knows is to blabber and bla3,,well not thAT BAD,,,he is a good father instead..But still,,why could not he be more understanding???I'm not saying that i'm not thankful,,,but just wondering.....

The truth is i miss doing my old habit,,which is reciting al-Quran..I'm not bragging about this or whatsoever,,but I really do feel peace after reciting Al-Quran verses as if all my problems had fly away...BUT,,that was last year only,,when I'm facing PMR..I know that this year is the worst for me..I had so much fun until I barely remember about my duties to Allah..I know my mom is always waiting for me to recite al-Quran verses for her,,..I;m sorry mom,,I always forgot about you,...But,I promise now that I will change...Insyaallah..

I know nothing about my real problem..But it seems that everyone is mad at me..C.Minah,,withe her usual way,,,asking[actually scolding] me to wear a more 'labuh tudung'...Sir Faris,,,asking why am i looking so lazy nowadays...AND last but not least,,my family that had been worrying about my attitude....

I'm sick thinking about this 'invisible' problem that I face..Perhaps,,I should be send to Phsychologycal Hospital,,since that I am emotionally unstable right now...Enough about my crazy feeling for now,,,because I afraid that you would be as crazy as I am after reading my blog...

p/S;thanks for lending your beautiful eyes..;)

Thursday, July 29, 2010

WhAt aN ExPeRiEnCe,,,



Peristiwa terbaek yg pernah trjd dlm idop aku!!!seronok sgt2 thp cipan,,dgn 'saeng2' hok gilo2 n sporting abess,,prut knyg,,hati pown sng,,

oppppss,,,sori sbb x cter dlu prstiwa ape niey,,excted sgt kot smpai trlupe..4 ur information,,ni ialah bbq suprise buat ckgu ksyngn,,Cikgu Zaidin..n die mati2 prcaye yg ade pgwai ppd nak jumpe kat perdana resort,,haha...Kirenye menjadi jgk la 'Wakenabeb' versi kitorang..

then lps 2 kitorang mkn2 n then tiba2 hujan trun lbt sgt..then abah aku pown tepon,,kate dah smpai..pah2 idin pown offer la teman ak smpai ke keter,,so,,ade la mcm dlm cter hndstn 2,,redah hujan same2,,,haha,,
p/s; x brmksud ape2 k...

Akhir skali,,thanks ye semua,,I syg u all sgt2,,u're the best buds i've ever had..thanks sbb menceriakn kmbali hdup aku yang suram,,..

Thursday, July 1, 2010

~EmO TyMe Is BaCk,,,,sobs3....

Last night,,,i had a dream...a terrifying dream,,about my dearest mother...it's not very clear,,but one thing for sure,,i saw my own mother was shooted in front of my very own eyes in that dreams...instantly i rushed her to the hospital,,,but i before i make it to go to the hospital,,,my mother died on my lap,,,

i cried and cried,,until i finally woke up from this horible dreams...i know i'm so stupid to believe in this crappy matters,,,but this totally had turn my life upside down for the 2nd time...after i had this dream,,then only i realise how much i really,,really miss my mother....ma,,i miss u,,,so much,,,i miss the time wheni was teased with my elder brothers,,and u will always hug me and tell 'xpo,,ma ado niey,,jge tiok...''...

i miss u,,,so much that i can';t describe it with words....after i woke up,,i can't stop crying..then i called all my siblings,,but none of them answers my call...my mind start thinking that no one loves and cares me anymore...i hate to be so weak like this,,,but i really need to let out my sadness on somebody's shoulders now,....

Ma,,,
I loves u so much,,
that no words can decribe,,
u're a truly special person,,
one of a kind in this world,,,

U're heart,,as white as pearl,,
u will always be there for others,,,
u're spirit,,really makes me proud,,,
to say that;s my mom!,,,

eventhough i'm 16 now,,,
i want u to know,,
that i will always be ur little baby,,
that is born from a really painful surgery,,,
on 25 nov 1994,,,

and i will always pray,,,
that simetimes,,perhaps in other world,,
i will still got the chance to meet you again,,
and to really2 appreciate you...

Thursday, June 24, 2010

bila perasaan bercampur aduk=stress

1]Frust menonggeng-nonggeng
aduyai,,frust la nga rsult nieyh,,,tp sbnr-bnrnye ak dlm thp ksdrn yg tnggi bhwa punca rsult ak merudum ilah sbb K.E.M.A.L.A.S.A.N ak ni sndri...hurm,,ak dal lame sedar psl pnykit sk niey,,,
untuk prbndgn,,disini ade rsult awl taon n tgh taon ak,,,

Awal tahun Tengah tahun
bm= 76 A- 76 jgk
bi 79 A- 70
sej 65 B 64
rc 74 A- 56C!
pai 76 A- 71
math 84A 70A-
+math 56C 56
fz 65B 49C-
bio 70 A- 62B-
chem 74A- 73A-

nampak x prbezaan ketara 2???kalau x nmpk lg,,mknenye dah x lama dah 2....ksmplnnye,,rsult ak turun berdgum-degum dari 7A 2B 1C ke 5A 2B 3C,,,
kirenye ak skang ni tgh meyakinkn bos ak 2 yg ak amt2 prlukn tuisyen skang niey,,

2]BeRdEbAr TaHaP cIpAn

n satu lg mslh ak niey,,ak tgh brdbr+nervous+takut sbb prtndgn drma bi dah dkt dah....n ak rase yg ak x dpt feeling pown lg...aduh...tkot,,tanak la pngrbnn ak pnteng kls sbb latihan drama ni x brbaloi pulak...mintak2 la mmbuahkn hasil...aminnnn....

Friday, June 18, 2010

kanak2 ribena yg riang!!!


saye,,budak kecik yg riang..................suke atiey!!!,,,naper ye???,,,,,

sbbnye,,smlm abh sy kate....smpn la duit anugrh pmr yg daerah 2 baik2,,x yah guna wat bli hnset baru,,

die kate,,nanti ade duit lebey2 sket,,die jnji nk beli tepon baru!!,,
sbb2 la,,sy suke atiey!!!,,,

Friday, May 28, 2010

Darjat seorang W.A.N.I.T.A


Seorang anak laki-laki



kecil bertanya kepada ibunya "Mengapa
ibu menangis?"

"Kerana aku seorang
wanita", kata sang ibu kepadanya.

"Aku tidak mengerti",
kata anak itu.

Ibunya hanya memeluknya
dan berkata, "Dan kau tak akan pernah
mengerti"

Kemudian anak laki-laki
itu bertanya kepada ayahnya, "Mengapa
ibu suka menangis tanpa alasan?"

"Semua wanita menangis
tanpa alasan", hanya itu yang dapat
dikatakan oleh ayahnya.

Anak laki-laki kecil itu
pun lalu tumbuh menjadi seorang
laki-laki dewasa, tetap ingin tahu
mengapa wanita menangis.

Akhirnya ia menghubungi
Tuhan, dan ia bertanya, "Tuhan, mengapa
wanita begitu mudah menangis?"

Allah berfirman:

"Ketika Aku menciptakan
seorang wanita, ia diharuskan untuk
menjadi seorang yang istimewa. Aku
membuat bahunya cukup kuat untuk
menopang dunia; namun, harus cukup
lembut untuk memberikan kenyamanan "

"Aku memberikannya
kekuatan dari dalam untuk mampu
melahirkan anak dan menerima penolakan
yang seringkali datang dari anak-anaknya "

"Aku memberinya
kekerasan untuk membuatnya tetap tegar
ketika orang-orang lain menyerah, dan
mengasuh keluarganya dengan penderitaan
dan kelelahan tanpa mengeluh "

"Aku memberinya kepekaan
untuk mencintai anak-anaknya dalam
setiap keadaan, bahkan ketika anaknya
bersikap sangat menyakiti hatinya "

"Aku memberinya kekuatan
untuk mendukung suaminya dalam
kegagalannya dan melengkapi dengan
tulang rusuk suaminya untuk melindungi
hatinya "

"Aku memberinya
kebijaksanaan untuk mengetahui bahwa
seorang suami yang baik takkan pernah
menyakiti isterinya, tetapi kadang
menguji kekuatannya dan ketetapan
hatinya untuk berada disisi suaminya
tanpa ragu"

"Dan akhirnya, Aku
memberinya air mata untuk dititiskan dan
ini adalah khusus miliknya untuk
digunakan bilapun ia perlukan."

"Kau tahu kecantikan
seorang wanita bukanlah dari pakaian
yang dikenakannya, susuk yang ia
tampilkan, atau bagaimana ia menyisir
rambutnya."

"Kecantikan seorang
wanita harus dilihat dari matanya,
kerana itulah pintu hatinya.. Tempat
dimana cinta itu ada."

Kirimkan ini kepada
setiap wanita yang anda kenal hari ini
untuk memperingati Wanita. Jika Anda
lakukan, sesuatu yang baik akan terjadi.
Anda akan menambah harga diri wanita!

Kirimkan msg ini juga
kepada kaum lelaki, supaya mereka sedar
dan ingat akan kecantikan wanita mereka
yang azali.. bukan pada kecantikan
luaran semata-mata. Selamilah hati
wanita mu.. dan ingat lah...
Setiap Wanita itu Cantik.

About Me

~I'm just a tiny,not fancy looking girls but has many dreams to achieve... ~believe in the saying "there is no such thing as limit,..they don't exist,,"