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Thursday, August 12, 2010

SeLaMaT MeNyAmBut PuAsA !!!





P/S;although my mum look fierce in this pixx,,but she is truly a kind mom..

Firstly,,I would like to wish 'selamat mnyambut bulan Ramadhan Al-Mubarak...and in this post,,I would like to share the memories that I once had with all my family members..

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MOM

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I still remember that every fasting month,,you would cook all of my favourite
foods without any complain,,Just utter it,,and bumm!u would cook it in just a
wink...huh,,only Allah knows how i miss ur cooks and wish that i could cook as
delicous as u never fail to do,,,,

Every morning,,u would wake us up and blabber about how lazy we were..That
time,,I really felt my ears gonna deaf after hearing ur blabber...But u know
what,,now,,,I really wish that u would still wake me up and blabber as u usualy
do...But I know,,,my wish is impossible by any means..



~Kak Nur


Although I rarely got the chance to fast with you,,But I still remember the time
when I bake 'biskut raye' with you...

~Kak Ti

Last year,,I think that i would feel lonely being through Ramadhan without my mom...But apparently u changed that..U worked really hard to replace mom's place..I know how burdened you are,, to take care of us..But still u just smile and pretend that everything was normal..You pick us up at hostel,,cooked our favourite foods,,took us to the mall and so many thing that u have done,,,making us feels like that we can still celebrate Ramadhan happily by ur side..

Thank u,,that's all I can say to u as I know I can't repay everything u have done to us..Although u pretend like u don't like me,,but I know deep down ur pure heart..U really loves me,,ur little sister
p/s; jge katow awin perase plop,,hehe..

~Abe Ein

As for abe ein,,u're the most generous brother i had besides abe de..I barely got to know you because u are the most secretive siblings..U don't like to let other's know about your problem and if only u do,,I barely know about it...b'coz i'm still a little girl..But I know that I love u,,,,and of course your generosity,,,..hehe.,,.and my love had increase after i knew that i gonna have a niece !!!

~Abe Pit

As for u,,my meanest but kind brother,,it's really hard being trough Ramadhan without u by my side..Although U always tease me so hard,,that I barely can count how many times u had made me cry,,,but still u are a very caring brother instead.. I remember that when I don't want to wake up for sahur,,u would 'dukung' me to downstairs and put me on the chair in dining room..How I feel special being the youngest member in our family..


~Abe G

And last but not least,,my dearest brother,,Abe g... U have always been the most 'juruh' siblings and you really do !!!...huh,,but I still remember the time when you're not too juruh..When ma waked us up,,we would went downstairs and continue our sleep on the sofa...=))

You had always being a good and protective brother to me..Although I have been hardly thinking why didn't u let me have a boyfriend or whatsoever..But I think Idon't need one..The love that I got from all of you had completed my love life..


As the proverb says 'distance keeps the heart grows fonder'....I know that we are slowly becoming adults and me too,,..and we also had only littel time to spend together...But I want u all to know that every single second I spend with all of you is so precious..


Finally,,thanks to all of my brothers and sisters..U make me think that although ma is gone,,I still got all of you shoulders to cry on..




Thursday, August 5, 2010

`ThE mOsT aBStRaCt FeeLiNg EveR!!!~

My life is now fill with laughter and fun,,yet why am i feeling my life so empty???,,I feel like a part of me is missing but i do not know what the hell it is..I felt so stress and feel like i'm gonna turn mad in any time..Why is this tini,,tiny thing turned worst???..Well,,I think I know the answer,,hurm,,I do not have any shoulders to cry on...what about my father,,huh..The only thing he knows is to blabber and bla3,,well not thAT BAD,,,he is a good father instead..But still,,why could not he be more understanding???I'm not saying that i'm not thankful,,,but just wondering.....

The truth is i miss doing my old habit,,which is reciting al-Quran..I'm not bragging about this or whatsoever,,but I really do feel peace after reciting Al-Quran verses as if all my problems had fly away...BUT,,that was last year only,,when I'm facing PMR..I know that this year is the worst for me..I had so much fun until I barely remember about my duties to Allah..I know my mom is always waiting for me to recite al-Quran verses for her,,..I;m sorry mom,,I always forgot about you,...But,I promise now that I will change...Insyaallah..

I know nothing about my real problem..But it seems that everyone is mad at me..C.Minah,,withe her usual way,,,asking[actually scolding] me to wear a more 'labuh tudung'...Sir Faris,,,asking why am i looking so lazy nowadays...AND last but not least,,my family that had been worrying about my attitude....

I'm sick thinking about this 'invisible' problem that I face..Perhaps,,I should be send to Phsychologycal Hospital,,since that I am emotionally unstable right now...Enough about my crazy feeling for now,,,because I afraid that you would be as crazy as I am after reading my blog...

p/S;thanks for lending your beautiful eyes..;)

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